Wake Me Up When September Ends...

In just a short 15 minutes the dreaded September will be here... 

Somehow my heart always knows it's coming, I've been just down in the dumps for the past week {I apologize if I have snapped at anyone or been somewhere lost in space} and I know it's because it's getting close... Every year I think to myself "I can't believe I have lived with a piece of me missing for so long." However, like I've said over and over "I'm not a strong person, I just had NO OTHER choice." I'm here and she's not, and even though I wished for a long time that the world would quit spinning around me, it didn't. Just like I wish I could go to sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow and it would be October 1st instead, but again that's not gonna happen. I will have to wake up every single day this month and breath deeply and live through it. {deep sigh...}

I added the Green Day song "Wake me up when September ends" to the blog for this month... Below are the lyrics, this year the song more than ever applies to me exactly since it says it's been seven years since his dad has been gone. This year will be 7 years since Madee has been gone. The only thing I changed in the lyrics below is father to daughter. 

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

wake me up when September ends

like my daughter's come to pass

seven years has gone so fast

wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again

falling from the stars

drenched in my pain again

becoming who we are

as my memory rests

but never forgets what I lost

wake me up when September ends

summer has come and passed

the innocent can never last

wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again

like we did when spring began

wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again

falling from the stars

drenched in my pain again

becoming who we are

as my memory rests

but never forgets what I lost

wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

wake me up when September ends

like my daughter's come to pass

twenty years has gone so fast

wake me up when September ends

wake me up when September ends

wake me up when September ends